Brosuke is surprised
It has always been bothering me on what to write for the blog. I have several reasons for that matter. Especially for me being lazy ass. No shit. For most of the time, it’s due to the lack of idea on what to write. But that’s not entirely true either. Of all, the idea of blogging was just like any ordinary blogs out there; to write out something interesting especially regarding something personal. We present our ideas and opinions in the blogs so that others can read. To make a blog popular, we are required to present something that they want to read. By having popular blogs, income can be generated through that way. That’s if what you want is money.
Generally, I am not into making money through blog. More like a hobby. When blogging was an idea for a replacement of online diary, it started to change as people use it for a simplified version of website and, of course, business. What is a simplified version of website? Go back 12 years ago when I was still new to website building (building was a common word instead of development back then), the idea of putting news and update requires a copy of index.html file being edited either online or manually on my desktop through rows of coding especially that <body>,<td>,<b>, etc. parts. A few years later, I’d being exposed with PHP and started to make my own homepage with my own application. That’s including Flash technology. But despite the knowledge, I still find it mendokusai or bothersome because there’s nothing that easier than that. Later on I started with CMS before using a simple blogging application called WordPress.
So, the tools are there but what about the contents? While blogging about ourselves are kinda easy to start with, there are always things on what to make it interesting. Also, there are things that to every people out there who has privacy over the matters that shouldn’t be told to everyone. I am quite particular about this. As a hobby, my personal blog started out as things that I like to do. However, the direction of the way I blog became audience oriented day by day. What do I mean?
I care about what the readers are about to read from my blog. Like thousands of people, I like to read major news including politics and have the urge to write and comments on those. Despite that, I always have this thought in my mind that some readers might get insulted from what I wrote. Once in awhile, it’s fine especially when sarcasm is rampant. But I don’t really like being labeled as an Internet troll although in reality Internet is not something that should be taken seriously. Seriously. Well, I love to read. I love to think. But having problem when I tried to convey my messages to others. I scared to get the feedbacks when they read my blogging posts. I scared that people might misinterpret what I am trying to tell them.
But this is actually something I do in real life. I seldom make a word, publicly, over stuffs that are insensitive. I prefer to observe and give a thought about it but never really come out of my mouth. Even if some people urged me to give inputs, I seldom give them any favorable answer. First and foremost, I will try to understand the other person first before giving out any opinion. In other matter, I think a lot before act.
More than a year ago, I was finally able to meet my greatest idol, a Japanese idol, who came all the way from Japan to Malaysia for some performance. Able to get an exclusive ticket that gave me a chance to meet her in person while getting an autograph, it’s totally amazing. I have always get a thought of shaking hand with her. But during the queue, it was quite hot and my palm kind sweaty so I decided not to do it because I was afraid that would irritate her. Arguably, I have the pleasure of doing it since I paid the ticket for such moment, yet I think about the other person a lot (and I have this kind of matter being argued a lot with a close friend few months ago). Another moment was when a friend of mine loves to scruffle my other friend’s hair. From a point of view, she’s being teased a lot since she’s a little bit short. After parting, I quickly gave her a message, something like almost apologetic manner of message, if she doesn’t feel ok with the deliberate act though later on she said that she doesn’t really mind about it.
The problem with me to observe and gain information a lot while failing to express my thought and feeling has taken some toll. First, I never have any kind of relationship at all. I think for some people nowadays, it’s a big deal to show on their Facebook info page that they’re ‘In a relationship’ to others. Second, my masters thesis have not yet finished. Should’ve finished it a year or so ago but this can be put under the ‘lazy-ass’ category eventually. Because writing a thesis is a pain in the butt to do so (despite the actually product/project has already been completed). The third one would this blog. To be honest, there were several unpublished posts, drafts, about the already old matters that I don’t think really that relevant at the moment. Truly, I always have a thought of making some political oriented posts but always holding it up. Heck, if I want to go for full-fledged anime blog, that would be a joke when all stuffs that I posted are something biased to my liking.
I think I should just stop thinking too much and just post whatever I want.
i cannot brain this…
at least u thought about it…not some others blog i went into that got more post than here but less visitors
Maybe you would consider writing more of this kind of post in the future?
But seriously, just write whatever you feel man. Because, well, it is your blog after all